Thursday, November 15, 2012

Wishing, and Hoping, And Thinking, and Praying

That is what I've been doing. For several months now, actually.

We've been trying to conceive for 4 months without success. I'm not saying I'm worried. I know God's doing everything in His time. I just can't help but feel wistful, though.

Now that I have an adorable little niece to visit, I want a child of my own more than ever.

I spend my free time talking to my Lord, trying to make my feelings known without sounding demanding. It isn't always easy. Maybe it's just the hormones talking. I mean, I'm only 25. Plenty of women have been even older than I am before they had their first child. I still have plenty of time, right?

I know I should be patient. I know I should be "enjoying my free time while I still have some". I love my husband. I love our life together. I just think we have so much love, it would be a shame to not have someone else to share it with.

I will be still. I will be patient. I know you will do what's best Lord. I'm patiently waiting on you.